Guilty pleasure

I'm a nightmare, a disaster, thats what they always say.

I'm a lost cause, not a hero.

You know how you stand and stand and stand in line for the most gigantic incredible roller coaster you've ever dared attempt.
Anticipation swelling, minute by minute by minute, you choose to wait even longer to ride the front car and finally its your turn.
They buckle you in, lock the safety bar with a jolting cluck! Hook engaged, the chain jerks you forward. You start to climb.
Cresting the top, time moves into overtime as you wait for that scant hesitation, just before you drop.
You know how you feel at that instant? Well, thats exactly how it feels when you shake hands with a monster.

Destiny is for losers.

It's just a lame excuse for letting things happen to you instead of making them happen.