We're falling apart,

I have the tendency to say things that aren't meant to be said and i'm sorry for that.

I don't know what i'm thinking,
where did i go wrong.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, probably under the influence of bel,
thinking is bad.
it makes me think of all the different possibilites why ppl do things, and why they don't.
And after that much amount of thinking,
it makes me feel so weird and uneasy.
I'm starting to doubt things that i shouldn't, but i just can't erase that thought out of my mind.
honestly, i want this feeling to go away.
i feel used and pathetic.
there are so many uncertainties and questions that have yet to be answered.

I had competition today,
i partnered jiaxuan for doubles and we played with these two really damn huge guys.
haha and we couldn't stop laughing
our coach was laughing with us too.
i like her, she's nice.
and we tried to take her unglams(:

i have go for competition again tmr.
so boringg.
wtv, im going to watch harry potter now.